Lorne, Ianto and Owen, I hope that you guys are all right over there. Please let us know as soon as you're able to. You'll be in my thoughts.

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi]

Our basement looks like it got taken over by a dojo. Cole found out that the Source has made it his personal mission to kill me and my sisters (surprise, surprise), so he's training Phoebe to fight him. He wants to train me too, but someone has to give Paige a crash course in Wicca, and besides, I don't trust Cole as far as I can throw him. I'd rather not have him trying to beat the shit out of me.

Speaking of Paige, trying to teach her is not going so well. I'm trying to teach her about herbs and their magical properties, but she has no interest in any of it, and I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall. All she wants to do is learn how to fight like Phoebe, but without a strong foundation in magic, being able to fight isn't going to do her any good against the Source, or against lesser demons for that matter.

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi]

Paige stole our Book of Shadows. When I get my hands on that little witch, I'm going to kill her. And if Phoebe tries to tell any of you that Paige merely borrowed the Book, do not listen to a word she says. Paige threw our sacred Book out of the attic widow so that we wouldn't catch her taking it, for fuck's sake! She's a dead woman.

Current Mood: livid

( To Dean: )

( To Jounouchi: )

[Filtered to Jounouchi and Dean]

I'm so sorry that I missed both of your birthdays. I had a lot to deal with, and I wasn't myself. I know it's late, but I'd like to wish you both a happy birthday. I'll send you both a birthday gift before the end of the week.

[Filtered to Hakkai and Sanzo]

I, um... I'm back to normal now. And I'm really, really sorry. I'd like to apologize to you guys in person, if you'll let me.

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi]

Well, it's been an interesting few days. Shax, the demon assassin that killed Prue and tried to kill Paige, is vanquished. We fought the Source, and while we won the battle, we haven't won the war, not yet anyway. I blew the bastard up, and he just put himself back together like nothing at all happened. I've never seen anything as powerful as him before. We did save Paige, though. She's chosen to use her powers for good. He nearly had her convinced to join him, but then he tried to kill Phoebe, and Paige stopped him. He also tried to kill Cole for turning traitor on him, but he wanted him to die slowly rather than kill him outright, which allowed him to be saved. I'd have let him die, but Phoebe insisted that Leo save him. It's against the rules for Leo to save demons, so he had to help Paige tap into her whitelighter powers, and they healed him together.

Cortés videotaped the whole battle between us and the Source, and nearly got himself killed in the process, but Leo healed him. Darryl said that Cortés deleted the recording when he got back to the station, and that he's taken us off of his list of suspects. I think he saw enough to convince him that we're the good guys.

I'm still not sure what to think of this whole reconstituting the Charmed destiny thing. I need more time to think about it. Phoebe and Leo are alright with it, and we haven't told Paige about it yet. I don't think the Elders are going to be thrilled, but they can kiss my ass. I'm sick of bending over backwards for them. If I decide to do this, it's going to be because I want to, not because they want me to.

So um, I have a half sister named Paige. Apparently my mother had a child with another man after she divorced my father, and she put the baby up for adoption. Trust me, I'm just as shocked as you are.

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi]

Not only do I have a half sister, but she's half whitelighter, too. My mom got together with her whitelighter, Sam, and they had Paige just before my mother died. They gave the baby up to keep her a secret from the Elders. Relationships between witches and whitelighters were forbidden until me and Leo, and you all know how hard we had to fight to be together. In the words of Cole, the forbidden apple doesn't fall far from the tree. Apparently if we can convince Paige to join us we can reconstitute the Charmed Ones and get the Power of Three back. I'm not so sure that I'm all that interested in reconstituting the Charmed Ones, but I do want to do something to save Paige. Phoebe saw the same demon that killed Prue killing Paige, and she's already saved her once, but Paige won't really be safe until we find a way to kill the demon.

The police assigned Prue's murder investigation to another inspector. His name is Cortés, and he seems to be under the impression that Phoebe and I had something to do with the death of our own sister. He came here with a search warrant tonight, and he has the manor under surveillance. I don't know what he thinks he's going to find, because there's nothing to find. I'm more concerned about the fact that he can expose us as witches if he catches us doing magic. Cole says that he took care of Cortés for now. I'm not going to question it. I don't think I want to know.

[Private Entry]

I don't understand how my mother and Grams can just show up in the attic after all these years and say "Oh, by the way, you have a sister." This is the sort of thing that we kind of needed to know long before now. You'd think that Grams would have found the time to tell us sometime before now. And their timing really sucks, too. I don't know if I can handle having another sister on top of losing one. I'm still trying to get used to the idea of having to live without Prue, of suddenly being the oldest sister and being responsible for this family, and now all of a sudden I have another little sister that I have to look out for, too.

[Private Entry]

Oh god. It was supposed to be me that died, not Prue. Somehow, Prue died in my place when time was reversed. This is all wrong. Prue was always stronger than me, better than me, a more skilled witch than me. She should still be alive.

In the original time line, Prue and I and Dr. Griffiths all lived. Prue and I were careless with our magic in public shortly thereafter, and we were exposed to the world as witches. There was a media circus outside our house, police, people who wanted to join our coven, people who wanted us to repent... it went from bad to worse. Someone in the crowd shot me through the parlor window and killed me.

In the meantime, Phoebe was in the underworld, trying to reverse the effects of the spell that Cole's mentor used to turn Phoebe against him in the first place. It worked, and it ended up saving her life, and mine. He went to the Source and convinced him to have Tempus turn back time, saying that the exposure was a threat to all magic, white and black alike. The Source wanted Phoebe in exchange, and Cole agreed, but then he betrayed the Source and he and Leo got Phoebe out of the underworld. Cole's on the run again.

I understand that Phoebe and Leo had to tell me what happened, but I wish that they hadn't. I wish that I didn't know that it was me that died, and now I'm alive and Prue's dead.

Maybe there's still a way to save her. Phoebe and I tried everything I could think of, but maybe there's still something that we haven't thought of. We've cheated death before. Maybe I can bring her back. Tonight is my last chance; the funeral is tomorrow. I'll stay up all night if that's what it takes, but I won't give up on her. Not yet. Not when she should be alive and I should be there in her place.

I'm afraid I have some bad news to share. Prue, my older sister, died yesterday afternoon. Her funeral will be on Saturday, followed by a wake here at the manor.

Happy New Year! :)

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi, Owen]

Things are back to normal around here, kind of. Prue's not a dog anymore, and Phoebe's not a banshee anymore. Cole threatened to kill me, but he did give me a chance to escape rather than killing me right away. I tried to kill him, but our vanquishing potion doesn't work on him anymore. He's done something to protect himself magically.

Phoebe's gone from wanting to kill Cole herself to wanting to save him again. *sigh*

Prue got fleas from being a dog. *snickers* We had to buy her flea shampoo.

We got the bill from the window repair guy after Phoebe's scream shattered all of the windows in the conservatory. I think we single-handedly keep him in business. I might have to think about raising drink prices at P3 or something.

Thank you all for the wonderful gifts! My family and I love them. :D

Happy birthday, Tatsumi! :)

( To Tsuzuki: )

( To Tatsumi: )

[OOC: Let's pretend that this arrived yesterday, yeah? Still more to come later.]

( To Sanzo: )

( To Hakkai: )

[OOC: More to come later!]

( To Seto: )

( To Jounouchi: )

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi, Owen]

Fuck. We turned Prue into a dog, Phoebe's a banshee, and now they're both missing and it's up to me to try to figure this shit out.

Two nights ago, on Yule, a man in our neighborhood was killed. Darryl let Phoebe and Prue take a look at the crime scene after the police were finished with it. There was shattered glass everywhere, and the man's blood vessels had burst. My sisters figured out that a banshee had killed the man. So then we cast a spell to track the banshee to stop her from hurting anyone else, which turned Prue into a dog. Not exactly what we had in mind, but Leo thinks that's how the spell was meant to work. Dogs have a better sense of hearing than people do. They'd be able to hear a banshee's scream from miles away. After chasing Kit around the house for a while, she heard the banshee and took off after it, and Phoebe and I followed. We found the banshee and fought her, but she got away. Prue went after her again, but we couldn't keep up. We lost her.

Phoebe and I went back to the manor after that, and Leo was there waiting for us. He'd gone to the Elders to find out if there was a way to vanquish the banshee, but they were unhelpful as ever. They did tell him that banshees feed on pain, and that she would feed every night unless she was stopped. They also told him to warn us to be careful, because if a banshee chooses a witch as its next victim, the witch becomes a banshee. Too bad they were a little slow delivering the memo. The banshee had already chosen Phoebe as her next victim. She's certainly dealing with enough pain over breaking up with Cole. I blew up the original banshee, but now Phoebe's been turned, and if I can't save her before she feeds tonight, I'm going to have to blow her up, too.

I have a plan. I don't like it, but it's all I have. I'm going to summon Cole. That way Phoebe will be forced to deal with her pain, which just might save her. Prue will track Phoebe, so I should be able to find her that way, too.

[Filtered to Dean, Hakkai, Sanzo, Seto, Jou, Martha, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi, Owen]

I HATE this new power. I feel like I'm doing everything I can to try to control it, but instead of getting better, it's getting worse. I've tried meditating to focus my power, and I've tried practicing blowing things up in a controlled environment, but it's just not working. I still end up blowing things up without even trying to do anything, and I blow them up when I'm trying to freeze things, too. I wish I'd never gotten this stupid power. The elders made a mistake giving it to me. I'm not ready for it, and I'm going to wind up hurting someone. My hands are lethal weapons and there's not a damned thing I can do about it.

Current Mood: frustrated

Happy Yule, and blessed winter solstice to everyone!

[Filtered to Hakkai, Sanzo, Tsuzuki, Tatsumi, Seto and Jounouchi]

I know it's short notice, but Phoebe's graduating on Saturday, and Prue and I are having a party for her. Nothing big, just a cake and a few of her friends to celebrate. If you guys aren't busy, we'd love for you to join us. If you are busy, no worries. I know it's close to the holidays. :)